Sunday, 27 February 2011

INDIGO CHILDREN

Greetings Bloggers!
Are any of you:
-artistic or have a natural creative flair?
-highly sensitive or empathic toward others?
-do you believe you were born with psychic, telepathic, supernatural powers or spiritual gifts?
-do you have a deep understanding of animals and perhaps believe you can talk to them?
-did you grow up feeling different from everyone else? Did you feel you never fitted in at school, that the education taught at school was not something you could identify with on a soul-level? Were you diagnosed with ADD, and yet know you know have no behavioural or learning disability?
-have a love for crystals and feel a deep sense of appreciation for nature, so much so that the thought of someone harming earth deeply hurts you?
-people often say you’re weird or strange and you tend to be a loner?
-can you see spirits, angels and magical creatures, such as faeries?
-do you have the ability to hear voices of the angels?
-do you feel compelled to help people and can only be around people who vibrate at a higher spiritual frequency?
-does confrontation or negative energy make you physically uncomfortable?
-do you believe, without a shadow of a doubt that you were meant to be here on earth for a specific reason? Have you chosen a career in which you help others, be it healing or teaching?

If you can identify with most of the above statements, chances are you are indeed an Indigo Child. The term Indigo Child, sometimes known as Crystal Children, describes enlightened souls living on earth, especially in this era of human life.  These special souls are believed to have been born with and indigo aura, a colour which indicates strong spiritual / supernatural gifts. Indigo children have come to earth in this lifetime to help spread peace, love and spiritual enlightenment at a time where earth needs help most.
Growing up i was often called ‘weird/strange/different’ by family and friends. I went to five different schools and had very little close friends. The people I chose to hang around were often the ‘misfits’ of school. I hung out with the delinquents, rebels (because I have always wanted to be different, dress different, never conforming to trends and had a mind of my own. I found really wonderful friends during the last few years of school in my art class. We were all different, yet our passion for art kept us together. We were the art geeks, spending our lunch breaks in the art class drawing and painting and never really mixed with the other kids at school. Our individuality fuelled our creativity and we expressed this in our art. My good friend Sam painted and drew mostly spiritual work, she had a great respect and love for Hindu culture and this showed in her work. I loved glamour and gothic art, so much of my work centred around dark beauty and bold faces. Portraits were my favourite things to paint, I loved how people’s faces each told a different story and could evoke different emotions to the eye of the beholder. My final piece of artwork for the matric exam was composition in colour. I painted this piece expressing emotion after I had caught an ex boyfriend cheating on me. splashes of colour ran across the huge page reflecting my pain and loneliness. The passion that came out in my art that final exam was precisely why I believed I scored a distinction and was happy that out of a negative experience came glory for me.

With global warming and our precious earth losing it’s natural resources, the natural order of feminine and masculine energy has changed. Indigo children were born in our era to help bring back this balance and help earth in very special ways, emphasizing on spiritual enlightenment vs technology. Indigo children wish to promote natural health, simple living and healing.
Indigo children are insanely passionate and intuitive creatures. Many people perceive us as being weird or strange because we are misunderstood. Indigo children stand out in a crowd, having different ideas about life and do not conform to the ‘norm.’ But what exactly is the ‘norm?’

I often question why people accept things to be a certain way just because it has been done the same way over and over again. Who makes up these rules? An indigo child questions everything in life and tries to make better the world around them. Whether it’s a young child empathic toward a stressed out parent or an indigo adult trying to save the world, they are a blessing to our earth. An indigo child may be prone to depression early on in life, trying to find his or her own identity. It is imperative we start to nurture these young souls, for they have been born with a deep understanding of the Spirit and will try live life with good intentions.
Angel Blessings!
Your Resident Psychic & Spirit Medium,
Tennille*

GROUNDING PERSONAL ENERGY

Greetings Bloggers!

I trust you all have had a wonderful week, with Spring comes the promise of new beginnings. I look forward to the Spring rains every year, gardens look fresher and I make a point of buying myself fresh flowers often to remind myself of the beauty that exists around me. This week I am going to show you a simple exercise on establishing or reconnecting your roots to earth –
THE GROUNDING AND CENTERING TECHNIQUE.

I moved house eleven times growing up, attending five different schools. My dad is a musician, and his work took us around a lot. I was very much a loner as a child, painfully shy, especially having to constantly make new friends. As a result, the only security I felt was in myself- Even so, I was lonely and felt the need to have friends around me.
Unfortunately, with my psychic gifts and eccentric nature, not many kids understood me, they would tease me and pick fights with me, because I was the ‘weird’ girl. I spent many lunch breaks alone, feeling as though no one understood me. When I got home after school, I would play by myself in our garden, and had many special ‘imaginary friends.’ In hindsight, I realize these ‘friends’ were indeed spirits of people whom had crossed over, and I would have elaborate conversations with them. When I was older I began to see the spirits of those who have crossed over much easier, back then as a child, these special spirits would comfort me and make me feel that I wasn’t alone after all. They would indulge in my fascination with faeries and magickal creatures. I would collect lady birds and silk worms in little glass bottles – as lures for faeries. I would also make a point of putting bits of food and cake by the trunks of trees, inside flowers, all in the hope of meeting these magickal beings whom I loved so dearly. Although I did not see faeries till much later on in my life-I still believed they were there-protecting the flowers in our gardens and sprinkling magick all around me.

I began to understand how incredibly healing nature is. The fact that you can take a tiny dried bean from your cupboard-pushing it into some moist soil can create a beautiful tree someday is proof of the immense magick nature is all about.
We are all part of nature- we feed of Mother Earth and it is very important to me to give gratitude for all the beauty and nourishment nature has bestowed upon us.

One simple exercise I enjoy doing regularly is the Grounding and Centering Technique.
This technique is based on the philosophy of releasing stagnant personal energy into the earth, where Mother Nature so cleverly rebalances it for you.

To do this exercise, you’re going to need fifteen minutes alone in your back yard. I like to do this exercise in the late afternoon, where most of our energy has been taken up by our many responsibilities. Take off your shoes and stand on a bare patch of grass or soil.
Close your eyes, breathing deeply. As you do so, start relaxing each muscle in your body, from your head to your toes. Notice where you feel any tension and gently tell those parts to let that tension go.
Once you have done this, I want you to imagine that from your feet, tiny little roots are growing and expanding from your toes. Imagine those roots burying themselves deep into the ground- essentially you are imagining to be a tree,  re-forming your roots into the earth. I want you to visualize these roots going deeply into the ground, go as far as you mind will imagine it can go.

Once you have done this, imagine stagnant or negative energy leaving your body – from your mind right down to your feet into the roots beneath your toes. Every breath you exhale imagine more negative energy leave your body in this way. When you sense your body has released all the tension, worries and stagnant energy– Imagine the earth below taking that energy and purifying it. You are not harming earth by doing this – Mother Nature is a natural healer and wants to take your stagnant energy and rebalance it for you.
Keep breathing and now imagine Mother Earth replacing that energy for you. Imagine a glowing white light of new, fresh and positive energy surging upwards from the ground into the roots beneath your toes, then up into your body. Inhale deeply, imagining that white healing energy fill your entire body now, from your feet to your legs, torso, chest, throat and your mind. Believe with all your heart that this energy is healing, purifying and rebalancing you. Once you start feeling cool energy and tingly all over – you will know that Earth has helped rebalance your personal energy and you may open your eyes.
Try this simple exercise this weekend if you can and then see for yourself how relaxed you feel afterwards. Be thankful that you have taken time to reconnect with earth.

Love and light,
Your Resident Psychic & Spirit Medium,
Tennille*

ANGEL BLESSING TO ATTRACT REAL LOVE

Greetings Bloggers!

I trust you all have had a fabulous and productive week.

How many of you can identify with one or more of the following statements?
Are you-

-broken hearted
-being cheated on
-cheating on your partner
-fantasizing murdering your partner
-with someone you know is not good for you
-with someone at the moment just to pass time till ‘THE ONE’ comes along
-don’t believe in love anymore and have decided to be single forever
-tired of the phrase ‘friends with benefits’
-realize you’re someone’s ‘friend with benefits’
-tired of being alone

The Shakespearean phrase ‘The course of true love never runs smoothly’ seems to apply more in this day and age than ever. Why is it that we have every option available to us in the world nowadays and yet never seem to be truly happy in love?

True love does exist, now before you all label me as a woman consumed with fairytales, let me explain myself. True love to me simply means unconditional love. Its being yourself, your lazy –warts- and -all self and still having someone find you utterly attractive and irresistible in every possible way.

True love is being able to, beyond a shadow of a doubt, trust that your partner will be loyal to you, comfort you, and encourage you to grow as a person.
True love or real love does NOT hurt or harm you. If you are with someone right now who does not make you feel good, that is NOT real love. That person is a lesson, packaged very attractively (or not) for you to learn something important in your spiritual development.

Five years ago, I took a sabbatical from dating. Realizing that I had spent the previous ten years of my life in many destructive relationships, pleasing everyone else but myself, putting up with infidelities and other abusive behaviours, I had had enough!

I chose to be single for an entire year. I needed to work through my issues, heal my past, find clarity in my disillusionment and figure out what in the world I wanted from a relationship. I was so caught up in finding ‘The One’ that dating had become more of an ‘interview’ for me. Instead of going out with my friends and family on the weekends, I would stay home, curled up on the couch with nothing but hot chocolate, a big bag of Doritos and my horror movie of choice. That for me was heaven. I enjoyed my solitude and slowly I worked through my past pain. I journalized a lot, sometimes writing letters to the men who I had perceived had wronged me, other times, I asked for forgiveness. And, of course, there were times I was vengeful, thinking up ways to punish them if I had ever seen them again. (I am only human)

By the ten month, I was so happy being single I didn’t feel the need to have anyone in my life romantically. I was at peace with myself, having let go of my issues and was starting to find men appealing again. One guy in particular really caught my eye. A handsome, broad-shouldered, tall guy, with beautiful long hair. He looked like the 21st century Fabio to me. Angels played harps when I would spy on him walking down my road, for soccer practice. I thought he was so mysterious. Never allowing myself to make the first move, I decided he would just have to be afternoon eye-candy and leave it at that.

I finally decided before the year was up to do an angel blessing for myself. I was ready for love. I wrote down all the qualities I’d hoped for in a mate, placed a rose quartz crystal under my pillow, then forgot about it. One night, two weeks later, one of my friends phones died, so he borrowed his neighbour’s phone to invite me on mxit to chat. He then deleted my number afterwards. Somehow my cell number hadn’t gotten deleted off mxit after all and, the following morning, I saw a foreign number on my contact list. The person belonging to that number struck up a conversation with me. He was witty, intelligent with a wicked sense of humour and we exchanged photos the very same day. When his mms photo came through, I almost fell off my chair realizing he was indeed the very same tall man with beautiful long hair I had been eyeing months earlier! (Insert angel harp music here)

To do your own Angel Blessing to Attract Real Love, you will need-
A list of the qualities you hope to find in a mate (Be realistic, don’t ask for a Taylor Lautner or Taylor Swift lookalike! But if you prefer women with long hair or a man with broad shoulders go ahead, the trick here is to be as specific as you want to be. Don’t forget, looks aren’t everything! Loyalty, friendship, trustworthiness, a sense of humour is important!)
A small rose quartz crystal (This crystal heals your heart chakra and helps you attract love)

Read out your finished list to God, the Angels or whomever you wish to hear it. Know that these words are spoken from your heart and will bring to you what you ask for. Law of Attraction!
Then place the crystal underneath your pillow for at least a month.
Wait and see what the Angels have in store for you! Now I’m not saying it will bring you your soul mate, however, it will help you attract what your heart desires right now. When you are ready and the time is right, your Soul Mate will come to you. Destiny always gets its own way!
HAVE FAITH in Love.

I wish to thank my wonderful tall, handsome, long- haired boyfriend for restoring my belief in true love, for loving, understanding and being so good to me. You are my hero and I love you forever Shiraz Laher.

I wish you all a fabulous weekend, if you are unhappy in love or miserably single, perhaps it’s time for a little reflection and an angel blessing in that department of your life. I know one thing for sure, no matter who you are, where you came from, what you have done, you still DESERVE to LOVE and TO BE LOVED.


Love, Light & Angel Blessings to you all!

Your Resident Psychic & Spirit Medium,
Tennille*

MAKING PEACE WITH THE PAST

Greetings Bloggers!


I hope you all have had a blessed week. I am looking forward to the sun being out more often now, trips to the beach, picnics in the park and laying outside at night staring at the stars. Spring has always been my favourite time of year, not only because my birthday falls in Spring, but because I love watching the Spring flowers and trees bloom after a sleepy Winter.

We all have ‘seasons’ in our own lives. Every season sees us basking in the glory of our shining moments (Summer). We have moments of change and contemplation (Autumn). We have dark moments where we just want to curl up and hibernate (Winter) ,and we have cycles of re-birth and rejuvenation (Spring).

This week I am going to show you how to make peace with your past. I share this simple exercise with many of my wonderful clients and it truly does help in making spiritual peace with those in your life you perceive have wronged you. All you need for this simple exercise is a piece of paper, pen and a lit candle.

I want you to write down the names of everyone in your life whom you believe has wronged you, everyone you feel you haven’t forgiven completely and everyone whom you feel you still have an emotional attachment to that no longer serves you positively right now.

Next to each of those names, write down what you would say to those people if they were sitting in front of you right now. Maybe they need your forgiveness, or maybe you want to scream and shout at them because of how much they hurt you. Write down whatever comes from your heart.

Once you have done that, flip the page over and write down their names again. This time, write down all the lessons you have learnt from those experiences.

You could be angry with an ex lover who betrayed and cheated on you- maybe this has taught you to listen to your intuition more and not be so na├»ve. Maybe your dad was a poor example handling his money, leaving you and your family feeling insecure and unsafe-perhaps this has taught you how to be more resourceful with money and vow to be a better parent to your own kids someday. Maybe your dad was an alcoholic and made your childhood feel like hell – perhaps this has taught you that alcohol isn’t the answer to pain and you have vowed to be a healthier person, having seen the effects that alcohol had on your dad’s health.

Maybe your mom didn’t love you the way you wish she loved you- this could have taught you to accept yourself as you are and understand that loving yourself is more important. Perhaps you had lots of friends who said bad things behind your back and you lost them- this could have taught you that keeping one or two true friends is way more important than having the status of a social butterfly.

Maybe you were abused by a family member and this has haunted you all your life- perhaps this has made you understand that no matter how much anyone hurt you-emotionally, verbally or sexually-you are still a perfect child of God and the angels and you are a survivor. Many abused people have grown up helping others through abuse and heal themselves in the process.

After you have completed your list, write down in big letters ‘I FORGIVE MYSELF.’

Sometimes forgiving ourselves is harder than forgiving others. You are human and allowed to make mistakes. Feel the forgiveness in your heart and resolve to release your pain.

Next, hold that piece of paper to the flame of a candle and watch it catch alight. Believe that flame is burning away the effects of your past pain, watch the words disappear as they become ash and blow the ash away in the garden, where Nature can replenish those dark feelings with positivity now.

This exercise is important in spiritually healing your past. Your higher self has taken the time to let go of that pain and forgive others, or yourself for all perceived wrongs. You are now free to move on from that ‘Winter phase’ of your life.

Time to embrace new change, have new blessings and look forward to a better, more enlightened future. When you know better, you do better. The best way to ensure a better tomorrow is to make peace with your past and understand that this moment is all you need to create a better future.


Love & Light,
Your Resident Psychic & Spirit Medium,
Tennille*

SOLITUDE

Greetings Bloggers!

I was 22 when I left home to pursue a new life in Jhb. I had just been through a painful break up and my life was in need of a make-over. I had to board with family for a while until I found a place of my own. Little did I know what was in store for me.

Being a private person, and having spiritual beliefs that did not match my family’s there, living with them became very difficult for me. They shut down all talk about psychics, they were ignorant about my spiritual beliefs, did not understand why I believed in faeries and Goddesses, and said that psychics were evil people who worshipped the devil and dabbled in the occult. I was the ‘outcast’ in that home, they would try to change my beliefs constantly, brought home priests to cleanse the room I occupied, and sprinkled holy water on every little thing I touched. I felt worse than a criminal, having my own flesh and blood treat me like dirt. There were times I felt like I should pack my bags and move back home. But I knew I had moved up for a reason, and I was not going to let them dissuade my goals.

The torment got to such a serious stage that I was being completely ignored in that house, I stopped eating and at my worst, weighed 32kgs. If I was watching something on television they would rudely switch channels. If they were all in the pool, and I joined them for a swim, they all quickly got out. Even though I paid my board on time and I was the neatest person in that house, cleaning up after these people, they never appreciated me. Outings were arranged and I would never be told. I broke out in horrendous acne, and became a recluse. I could not understand how family could hurt me this way, they knew that I came from a very loving open-minded home, where us girls were encouraged to follow our own spiritual paths. They had promised my parents to look out for me, being in a new place and not having friends, but I felt completely betrayed. My mom came up to visit one weekend and insisted I leave, after seeing how these people were treating me. I packed my bags and went to live with another part of my family, people whom I never really knew, but who were kind enough to offer me accommodation. Living in my uncle’s home was a far cry from the previous family.

Here I was treated like a human being. My new family were uber-fabulous! They accepted me for who I was and honored for my beliefs. They made me feel like part of their family and spoilt me rotten with love. Even though things were wonderful and I was starting to feel safe, I made the decision to move into my own place, which I did so after just a month. I wanted to be on my own and was still shaken up by how the previous family had hurt me, I didn’t want to be a burden to anyone else and I needed to be alone.

When I moved into my cottage, I barely had enough money to buy furniture let alone entertainment, such as a television or radio. But I was so happy to be free, so happy to be on my own and not have anyone judge me. This was my place, my palace and mine.
I stocked up on loads of groceries, I remember having thirteen boxes of biscuits in my kitchen cupboard at a time. You have to remember I was very thin and needed to gain weight (well that’s my excuse and I’m sticking to it!). My home was really very quiet. In the evenings after work I had nothing but the sounds of my own breathing to listen to. At first it was scary, the silence was painful because I had to endure listening to my own thoughts. And some of those thoughts were not very nice, especially thinking about my unfolding journey in Jhb and the family that I had become estranged from. I spent many nights crying, feeling lonely, being scared in case someone broke in. But pretty soon, I started to love being alone.

I indulged in my passion for cooking and would make elaborate meals for myself after work. I borrowed mountains of books at a time from the library and would sit in my electric-warmed bed reading to my hearts content (with a packet of Doritos, hot chocolate and those coconut covered marshmallows on hand). Thereafter, sipping wine in my bubble bath, reading and sketching. My skin cleared up completely and I found myself feeling like a million dollars very quickly. I found new friends, people who saw the beauty in me and who accepted me for who I am. When my parents surprised me with a brand new television for my birthday, I was both ecstatic and sad! Ecstatic, because I would never have to miss my favourite show Survivor again, but sad because I had begun to truly love my solitude. I very often switched off my tv when I needed to shut out the world and just enjoy me-time.

There is such healing power and treasure in meaningful Solitude. Solitude allows us to listen to our inner voices. To figure out exactly what goes on inside our heads and what we keep replaying on our minds like a broken record. You come to a point when you start to realize that our minds can either be our best friends or our worst enemies. Even now, I steal time away from my family and even my boyfriend, because I need to ‘reconnect’ with my spirit. Shiraz understands this well, he knows that without me-time I become moody and he gladly gives me my solitude!

Try to have a little solitude regularly. You really do not need to be in the company of people all the time to feel safe or loved. Love yourself, give yourself some attention. Take yourself out to coffee, which is something I love doing often. Go to the movies alone, imagine being able to watch whatever you like instead of going along with your friend’s choices. Start a new hobby, find what makes your heart sing with joy. The only way you will know what you like and how you feel is by listening to your inner voice. Your inner self is like a compass steering you along the path that is perfect for you.
Don’t be concerned about what people may say seeing walking alone in a mall. Don’t assume people will think of you as lonely loser. As a matter of fact, people will assume the very opposite- that you are an independent person who loves his or her own company. Sometimes its necessary to be alone, find that treasure in your solitude and I promise you will feel as free as a bird.


Love and Light,
Your Resident Psychic & Spirit Medium,
Tennille*

CREATIVITY

Greetings Bloggers!

I have always been a very creative person. As a child growing up in the early eighties, we didn’t have access to technology such as computers or play stations as the kids these days do. I had to find ways to keep myself entertained without getting into trouble. My sister Simone and I would spend hours in the garden, making mud cakes and baking them in the sun. We would also make our own paper dolls with paper clothes to match. Our most prized creation of all was our double storey doll house, which we made out of a huge cardboard box, complete with elaborate paper and cloth miniature furniture.

We also kept an ant farm above our bed, not a very good idea at all since we’d wake up with ants crawling all over us! We made our own tree houses and ‘Secret Seven’ club houses.
We’d dress up in our moms dresses, jewellery and high heels and pretend to be Miss Universe!
I know that when I become a mom someday I will relish the chance at living a second childhood!

As I got older, I expressed my creativity in artwork. I drew, sketched and painted. I learnt how to cook from a very early age and loved being able to create my own gourmet meals out of everyday ingredients in our kitchen. I have a very healthy obsession with food! Nothing beats the scent of bacon and eggs grilling on a Saturday morning, or the delicious smell of fancy focaccia baking in the oven. My love for cooking and art was the reason I studied home economics in high school and I excelled in this subject.
My boyfriend Shiraz has unashamedly confessed he loves me mostly for my skills in the kitchen!

After high school, I studied and qualified in interior decorating.
I worked for a designing company for a while until life sort of took over, and I eventually started working full time as a psychic and spirit medium.

Even though my business takes up most of my time nowadays, I still try to find time to express my creativity. My muse is like a little child, screaming at me when I have not indulged in her creativity.
Every one of us was born with special gifts. It still amazes me when I ask my clients what talents they have or how they express their creativity in their lives. Many of them will laugh and say “I have no talent!” I laugh back and say “Off course you do!”

Creativity is indeed from God, and takes many forms. You may only view creativity as being able to sing, dance, paint or cook; however, creativity also takes other forms of expression. You may be a very creative speaker in your life, and you may use your sense of humor to brighten up someone’s day.
You may express your creativity by having a very curious mind and being a very visual person. You may express your creativity by putting together events, or may be creative in your organizational skills.

You may be very intuitive with your emotions and choose to express your creativity by writing poetry, songs, stories or books.
Your creativity may take the form of creating history and photographing moments in time.
Your creativity may lie in nature, allowing the colours, shapes and forms to surprise, delight and inspire you. You may enjoy spending time outdoors, doing a bit of gardening and planting various things, be they flowers or little herb and vegetable gardens.

Creativity is absolutely essential in de-stressing ourselves. Notice how incredibly tranquil you feel after doing something creative. It is our soul’s way of letting loose and allowing God to shine through us.

The possibilities of expressing yourself creatively are endless. Finding these ventures that give you a sense of accomplishment, be it big or small, help your soul bring about peace and contentment within yourself. Take a moment to listen to your inner muse and find out what it is that inspires you and let the creativity flow.


Blessed be,
Your Resident Psychic and Spirit Medium
Tennille*

SOLITUDE RETREAT

Greetings everybody!

I hope you all have had a wonderful week thus far. I am filled with bittersweet thoughts and a heavy heart having left Solitude Retreat yesterday. Instead of continuing with the seven deadly sins GREED this week, I thought I’d share the story of my holiday with you.

We all anticipated this holiday to be one of sheer luxury- in the heart of nature. Little did we know the universe had something else in store for us, as we left in the early hours of Monday morning. Solitude Retreat is in Dargle, hidden in the middle of Howick, Tweedie. It was so off the map that our Garmin Navigator kept re-calculating! Luckily we had clear directions and spent much of our journey driving through what seemed like a never-ending dirt road. Once we had reached Solitude Retreat, we followed a pathway of pine trees into the most beautiful looking cottages I have ever seen in my life! A huge guide dog, Gambit, greeted us. He looked like a mountain wolf, and his faithful companion was another dog, a ridgeback named Woody, whom Shiraz named Dobby. Dobby shook all our hands before he let us pet him. We walked into our cottages, Liquid Amber and YellowWood and got the culture shock of our lives.

Inside the rustic cottage we put down our bags and my heart sank seeing how old this ‘luxury’ home was. Painted concrete floors, old furniture, dusty counters! It was like a scene from an old movie. A bee hive was outside the kitchen window, and bees were flying into the house! I wondered whether the pictures from the website were taken thirty years ago! The fridge wasn’t defrosting properly and had to be kept closed with a twig. The claw-foot tub was being kept level by a brick, the old porcelain tubs and sinks were stained from wear and tear. I shuddered at the thought of putting a toe in when I would need to take a bath later. After walking around and hoping the gang (fussy snobbish creatures!)wouldn’t curse me for choosing this retreat, we all decided that we need to make the most of our situation. We humans complain too much anyway! 
Shiraz wanted a drink of water, and to our shock, the water that came from the taps was purified stream water and looked like tea! The lady assured us the water was drinkable however. I decided to take no chances and started boiling the water and filling up jugs to cool in the fridge for drinking.
It started getting dark and cold, so Sashin, my sister Kim’s boyfriend started collecting and breaking off pieces of wood for the lounge fireplace. Within a few minutes, he and my other sister Simone’s boyfriend Vie got the fire going. With the fire roaring, the lounge looked charming.
Shiraz got the dishwasher working and I baked chicken pies in the old gas oven. Soon we were eating our pies and sipping on wine and brandy. Bath water was the colour of tea and I tried my best to close my eyes and wash up! But our bedrooms were so warm and cozy and we had a wonderful first night's sleep.

The next morning, after breakfast of Simone’s home-made blueberry muffins, we all decided to have a go at canoeing in the dam outside the cottage. Never having canoed myself, this was something i was really looking forward to. After two attempts with Sashin and Shiraz, I had the confidence to canoe alone, so Kim and I went about canoeing by ourselves and relaxing in the middle of the dam. Sashin, Viesh and Shiraz were attempting to make their own fishing net, out of an old table cloth, broom and string from an old hammock. They each took turns to canoe and try to catch trout with out much luck. Next, Viesh started a braai with firewood and grilled a huge Texan steak for our dinner.  Afterwards, we went for long nature hike, meeting up with a pack of dogs and a herd of cows along the mulberry bushes and pine trees.

By the next morning, we were all excited to go canoeing again, and the friendly lady in charge offered to go to the nearest shop for us (an hour’s drive away). She returned with a few groceries and a five litre bottle of pure spring water-which we all guzzled down like liquid gold! Never been did water taste so good! We then decided to go for a swim at the nearby farm, Aired Country Club. We assumed it would be another dam, but low and behold, it was a sparkling rock pool overlooking mountains! I forgot to carry my swimsuit and swam in my khaki jumpsuit. All of a sudden, Sashin spotted ripe fruit on a tree, and he and the guys jumped out of the pool to pick us all a fruit. I’m not sure whether it was a pear, apple or quince(the shape and taste was out of this world) and we sat in the rock pool eating this delicious exotic fruit! Kim said it best, it was like we all had found the garden of Eden! 

Sashin and Vie picked peaches and lemons and got a hold of two fishing rods. We all tried our hand at fishing, but only Sashin and Shiraz caught trout, what a sight to behold! We spent more hours canoeing and watching the full moon glowing and create the most picturesque reflection on the dam.

We all got ready to leave with very heavy hearts. At the end of the holiday we agreed that this was the best holiday we had ever had. Despite the culture shock we city slickers had to deal with when we arrived, I can honestly say we all left as country bumkins.
The universe had a few life lessons for us all to learn.

Sometimes the most beautiful things you want in life is hidden, if you journey far enough you will find its treasure.






We are all human beings, take away our make up, jewels, cell phones and technology, we can adapt anywhere because within each of us lies basic survival instincts. We need to stop complaining and whining and start living authentically!

Nature is all the entertainment and healing we will ever need. Nature only asks that we listen and respect her. For those who do, she rewards abundantly.

Fishing taught us patience.

Canoeing taught us that without keeping balance in our lives, we will stray of course.

The beautiful guard dogs proved that friends can be made anywhere. You don’t need to be of the same race, age or creed to have a loyal friend by your side.

And finally, don’t ever take clean clear water for granted!

Early to bed, early to rise makes one healthy, wealthy and wise!

All in all, I will definitely be making another booking at Solitude. I came back a better person after this holiday.

Love and Light,
Your Resident Psychic and Spirit Medium,
Tennille*

PAST LIFE REGRESSION

Greetings Bloggers!

It amazes me how everything happens in synchronicity – if only we keep our eyes and ears open.
Many people don’t believe in having lived before this lifetime. Part of my work entails taking people back to previous lifetimes, getting them to identify key issues that they may have brought with them into this lifetime, and helping them rebalance the karma. I will share with you today my personal experience with past life regression.

My parents told me that ever since I was born I have been terrified of big buildings and huge ships. It was an irrational fear, growing up I couldn’t bear to look at ships. They would take us girls to the harbour and I would block my eyes the whole time. This fear got stronger as I grew older. My friends all suggested at one time or another on booking cruises but my answer was the same every time – “hell no.”

A few years ago, when my psychic powers were getting stronger, my great grandmother Grace, who is my spirit guide, would visit me in dreams regularly-giving me visions. Most of these were premonitions and messages from the angels on prayers that I needed guidance on. But on one night, I was taken on a dream journey I had never expected. I remember being in a lime green container, it seemed as though this box was floating on water and I realized I was in the middle of the ocean. The box wasn’t closed properly, so very quickly water started to fill the space I was in and I heard a loud honk of a ship. I awoke in a panic. Even though I was scared, this dream intrigued me. I had always wondered why I have such a fear of ships and I resolved to ask my angels and Great Grandma to take me back to my past life where I experienced trauma in the ocean.

The very second night, I dreamt I was on a huge cargo ship. I remember opening my eyes to see myself as a Spanish man, hiding on this ship. The sound of the ship honking and being in the middle of the ocean paralyzed me. I knew I was in trouble for stealing something. I was dressed ruggedly, with long hair and could sense I was not supposed to be on this ship. I caught sight of another ship approaching and there was a police symbol on it. Instinctively I knew they were there for me, and I started to run around the ship to find a ‘container’ to hide in. I knew exactly what this ship looked like, where everything was, and jumped into a lime green container. I awoke feeling more terrified than ever. But I was also happy to know that my angels and spirit guide were taking me back in time, so that I could understand my fear in this life.

On the third night, I said a special prayer to my spirit guide. I asked for specifics this time- I am a naturally suspicious person, so I needed proof that I was having a past life regression experience and this was not my imagination. What I got was far more than I had asked for.
In this last dream, I was myself as I know I am today, and right next to me was my beautiful great grandmother. We were floating in the middle of the ocean, it was night time and my grandma was showing me what had happened in my past life.
In front of us was that very same cargo ship, and my former self (the rugged Spanish man) was fighting with officials. I apparently was accused of stealing silver or gold and they were asking me to jump of the ship. I ended up in a scuffle with officials and one of them went to call another ship to arrest me. I managed to hide until this other ship arrived, then ran down to find a container to hide in. I asked my spirit guide for the details. She said the year was around 1700, the area was Seville and the ship was in ‘Vigo Bay’. I am not sure what exactly happened after I had found the container, but the next thing I knew, the ship was in flames and that container I was hiding in had fallen off the ship, and was now floating with my former self in it. The container was not closed properly and water was filling up very quickly. I saw myself in the container again, this time feeling the ice cold water around my body, I could taste the salt, I screamed and panicked but nobody could hear me. The last thing I remember was taking my last breath and just letting my body die. I woke up very traumatized that morning, but I believe the angels showed me as much as I could handle, therefore I needed to know this in order to move past this fear in this lifetime.

I did a bit of research and low and behold found a cargo ship in Vigo Bay. Seeing this ship made my heart pound, I had described every single part of the ship in detail to my family. How would I have been able to know where everything was on that very ship in this life if I wasn’t on it in my past life?
The year was 1702, the place Seville. War of the Spanish Succession had broken out in the middle of the ocean. The French Commander Chateaurenault had ordered the Spanish ship to be fired and sunk, hence the huge fire I recalled seeing. The ship had apparently been carrying a lot of silver and that is probably what I had indeed stolen. Low and behold, next to this photograph I saw a block of huge containers-all orange and lime green.
I knew I was very blessed to have been taken back to my past life, to witness how I died tragically in the ocean. This helped to clear up many of the questions I had regarding my fears about ships and I made a decision to start over coming my fear in this lifetime. The idea of a cruise still makes me nervous but I know it is something I am going to have to do in this lifetime.
This past Monday, Shiraz, my youngest sister Eloise and her new husband Kavelan and I went to see the Queen Mary 2 that was docked in Durban harbour. It would be the first time I’d see a ship of that size in person and the thought both terrified and exhilarated me.

As the Queen Mary 2 started sailing past as I stood on the pier, I buried my face in Shiraz’ chest, too scared to look. Hearing the ship honk startled me and I mustered up the courage to open my eyes. What I saw in front of me was truly magnificent. My heart pounded with fear, but I was in awe of such beauty.

The next step? I hope to someday have the courage to go on a cruise. I’m not sure when that day will be, but I know its going to happen.

If you have ever felt fearful of something you cannot understand in your life, or seem to be repeating the same patterns emotionally you cannot fathom-it is possible you have issues from a past life that need healing. Psychic healers like myself and other spiritual practitioners can help you go back in time to face those fears when they have originated. As humans, we have all come to earth to learn from our experiences so that our souls can progress to higher dimensions.

Be open to this concept, our souls have amazing stories to share with us-all we need to do is listen.

I want to wish you all a beautiful Valentines Day on Monday. Whatever the question, love is the answer!

Love and light,
Your Resident Psychic and Spirit Medium,
Tennille*

THE SEVEN DEADLY SINS : SLOTH

Greetings Bloggers!


I read somewhere years ago that Librans are lazy people. This insulted my greatly! I am a very driven Libran woman and I am always on some sort of mission. I have inherited the restless gene from my mom, who cannot sit still. My mom feels guilty putting her feet up, even after a long day at work and her feet are swollen. I am the same, I tend to over work myself. When I’m not working, I’m either cleaning or cooking. The one day I try to make sure I piddle (do absolutely nothing) is Sunday.
Sunday is pyjama day for me. I allow myself to sleep in, then have a leisurely brunch and spend the rest of the day just being a couch potato. By the time the afternoon arrives, I am completely relaxed, having allowed myself to just ‘be’. I then have a warm bubble bath, do my hair and nails.  I think this sort of ‘laziness’ is essential in our emotional well being.

Sloth is a very different sort of laziness however. It is being a couch potato all of the time and not being motivated enough to get up and get moving!

Life is ever-changing. If you find it difficult to move past laziness in your life then there isn’t something wrong with you, you just need a little inspiration to get you moving again. You need to find a purpose, something that drives you. And no, it doesn’t mean finding someone that drives you!
Expecting someone to entertain you and fill your time because you have nothing better to do is sheer selfishness!

Sloth is simply feeling too uninspired to get out of your rut. It means being happy to lie in bed all day (even when you’re not tired or sleepy) or channel surf because you have no idea what else to do.
People who indulge in this sort of sin often say they’re ‘bored.’ I hate the word bored! I believe the words ‘I’m bored’ should be replaced by ‘I’m boring.’ I cannot for the life of me understand how people can get ‘bored’ when there is so much to do in life!!!

It is unfortunate that in this age of technology we have become lazy to do things that require a little effort on our part. It is always more convenient to pick up our remotes, sit on our phones, order take- away and blame our woes on stress, than realize it is us who need to change our behaviour. Thus creating more balance in our lives.

Not many people know this, but my boyfriend Shiraz loves spending time in the garden. At first glance, most people perceive him as a gothic/rock star/rebel tall guy with long hair and pants that sit a little too low (Sorry darling!). Whenever his phone rings, some Marilyn Manson /Slipknot /My Chemical Romance song screams loudly. Would you believe that Shiraz has green fingers?! He grows lettuce, tomatoes, Italian herbs and I swear they are the tastiest organic greens I have ever had! Shiraz has promised to grow me a rose garden when we have our own home and an organic garden where we can eat the food he has grown with his own hands.

Whenever Shiraz is stressed or has spare time, he makes sure he tends to his garden. He looks after his plants as if they were his children. Watching seedlings grow into delicious vegetables give him a sense of satisfaction and tranquillity. He has a hobby (besides soccer of course) that keeps him busy and connected with his soul.

A hobby is so important to our well being. Hobbies seem to be something of the past nowadays but if only we all realized the gift in this expression! It minimizes sloth, gives us a sense of achievement and satisfaction. When we live life with a purpose, when we know that getting up in the morning brings another day to make the most of living and working toward our dreams, this is true happiness. This is faith and this is what life should be about.

To find more happiness, make a resolution next year to live a more balanced life. Set aside a day / time / hour regularly to just ‘piddle’. Do absolutely nothing and don’t feel guilty about it.

When you find yourself thinking you’re ‘bored’ remind yourself that boredom is simply feeling uninspired. Look inside yourself and find what it is that drives you. Maybe its reading a book, researching your family tree, trying your hand at knitting / painting / learning how to cook and making things from scratch / learning how to break-dance/ballroom dance / doing volunteer work (helping others is always a fulfilling way to spend free time) / creating a vision board to plan your goals and get clearer about your future (this is very inspiring). Every day here on earth is a blessing and opportunity to live your life your way. When you are inspired you inspire others. Take the time to rest regularly, to replenish your body, mind and soul, but say goodbye to sloth in the new year!

Blessings!
Your Resident Psychic & Spirit Medium,
Tennille*

JEALOUSY

Greetings Bloggers!

I am busy packing in preparation for my trip to Solitude Retreat! I can’t wait to go on this little vacation, I haven’t been able to take a holiday for over a year and I need this break to replenish my spirit! My sisters and I booked two cottages at the retreat, which looks like something out of a fairytale...surrounded by trees, beautiful flowers and a lake. I look forward to canoeing and trying my hand at fishing for the first time! Shiraz will be joining me, so I have my very own caveman to fight off the imaginary bears I’ll tell him I can hear growling in the middle of the night!

Even though jealousy is not technically considered one of the seven deadly sins, I thought I would touch on this emotion. In my eyes, jealousy IS sinful, it sparks emotions that make you feel physically sick and can lead you to do some pretty despicable things!
I value my reputation and believe in being a lady at all times. Very few people have seen me lose my temper. I do not believe in giving advice on something I haven’t learned, felt or encountered myself, and jealousy has certainly made me do some things that I am not proud of.  There have indeed been a few poor souls who have had to deal with the wrath of this lady scorned in the past.  I am human, push me far enough and you will have a problem.

Before I met Shiraz, most of my relationships were destroyed because of infidelity. There comes a time in your life where you learn to trust in the wisdom of a divine plan and realize that everything happens for a reason. But before you come to that realization, especially in matters of love, jealousy can be an emotion that destroys you.

I have had men cheat on me behind my back, right in front of my face, with close female friends. I have had the women those men cheated on me with harass me at work, in my home, stalk me. I even had virtually the whole of Durban girls High defame a work of art I had made for a very ungrateful boyfriend when I was seventeen. We had been dating for over a year and this new girlfriend of his made my life a living hell. She managed to get hold of a huge card I made for his birthday and took it to her school to scribble on it with all her friends. She quickly spread a rumour around school that I stole her boyfriend, when in fact he was mine first to begin with, and loads of girls started to call and harass me.

In reality, no one can ‘steal’ your partner. If your partner is ready and willing to cheat on you then he or she is to blame – not the other person! I know this is a hard thing to wrap your head around, but temptation is part of all our lives. The difference between a person who cheats and a person who is loyal is this- The ones who remain loyal to you really care about you and your happiness. They have respect for you. Even though they may eye attractive people now and then, (its human nature, we all do it, don’t pretend you don’t eye hotties!) they wont cheat because they love you so much. People who do cheat don’t care about you. Even if they say they care about you, they don’t care enough. They only care about themselves, and need constant reassurance that they are desirable.

Jealousy in love is one of the most hurtful and destructive emotions as it can lead you to do, say and behave in a way that you will indeed regret later. I once got so jealous that I lost my mind, went stark raving mad, after suspecting someone cheating on me and started attacking him physically. I hit him so hard I knocked the cigarette out of his mouth and people had to separate us physically. The sad truth -he wasn’t cheating on me after all and I was left feeling like an insecure idiot who couldn’t control her emotions. That was a turning point for me. I had to look myself in the mirror and realize that I was worthy, I was beautiful and I deserved someone who was completely loyal to me. Ever since that eye-opening day I have made sure I kept jealousy in check.
Sometimes people feel that if a partner shows jealousy, it shows love. I think jealousy shows insecurity and possessiveness more than anything.
Recently one of my moms co-workers (We will call her Jane) was involved with an attached guy-she had no idea had a girlfriend. After finding this out, she approached the two of them and warned this other woman that the guy was a two-timer and he was lying to her. Instead of thanking Jane for disclosing this information and giving her the heads up, this other woman went mad. Jealousy took over her brain and all she saw was another woman in her man’s life. She wasn’t thinking clearly-it takes two to tango and she directed her wrath against this poor other girl who had no idea she even existed in the first place!
To cut a long story short, the police had to intervene, as Jane was being tormented by frequent phone calls that had turned very nasty. The other woman started threatening to kill her, fearing for Jane’s safety, she was forced to leave work - All this because someone was consumed with jealousy.

If you have a tendency to feel jealous easily, I’m sending you a big hug right now. You need to know that you are a very special person who just needs to feel secure. Insecurity comes from not trusting life. Lovers will come and go but life has a way of always making sure you are on track. When relationships are destroyed because of jealousy, understand that perhaps you needed to leave him/ her. Only when your hands are empty can the universe bring you new blessings of love.
There is always a higher plan in action and a higher power at play. You are a student of life. Master your emotions, and your lessons will be easier to learn and pass. Sometimes the hardest thing to learn is that you don’t ever own anyone, people are not objects. The ones we are blessed with in true love are given to us to care for, honour and love, but we truly don’t ever own anyone. In Michael Jackson’s book ‘Dancing the Dream’, he wrote ‘Love is like a bar of wet soap, hold on too tight and it will slip away from your fingers.’

The next time the jealousy bug bites you, breathe deeply. Calm yourself down. Have a cup of tea or glass of water. When you can think clearly, that’s when creative solutions will come to you. In the heat of the moment we can all do and say things we don’t really mean. Compose yourself and always remind yourself that you are special and everything will be alright.

Love, Light and Angel Blessings,
Your Resident Psychic & Spirit Medium,
Tennille*

THE SEVEN DEADLY SINS: GLUTTONY

Greetings Bloggers! 
Even though I’m not Christian, I love Xmas. I’m blessed to have been brought up by a family who honours all religions and spirituality. My mom always makes sure we have an elaborate Xmas dinner. One of our family traditions that date back from to my great- grandparents, is making Xmas pudding. We choose a day to get together and make two huge puddings. Everyone knows the Thumbadoo pudding is laced with brandy, those family members who come home and claim not to touch alcohol have been caught having extra pudding! My grandfather, the late Rama Thumbadoo, used to dress up like Santa Claus and put all our presents in a pillow case, slung over his shoulders saying ho ho ho!! We remember this fondly as children and even though we’ve all grown up, we still feel the need to shake each box under our little Xmas tree.


Unashamedly, the one thing I love more than exchanging presents this time of year is the food! Everyone who knows me, knows that I have an intense passion for food and cooking.
Some of you may have noticed many of my facebook statuses describe my midnight kitchen raids. I have loved midnight snacks since I was five years old. My cousin was staying over for the holidays and we were bored as hell one night. We crept into the kitchen while my parents were asleep, made toast, and spread lashings of melrose cheese spread on it! I don’t know whether it was the time of night or the thrill of being awake while my parents slept, but that piece of toast tasted like heaven to me! Up till today, you will always find a jar of melrose cheddar cheese spread in our fridge.

Another one of my favourite memories that has been defined by food, was when I was fourteen. A friend and I had gone to fetch a book from a former boyfriend’s home after school. It was the first time I had seen where he lived, and my heart sank when I walked into his family’s one bedroom flat,  five people were living there. His sister insisted we have something to eat. I felt a little uncomfortable, wondering where we were going to sit but she had already started  clearing space on their little table. She warmed up something that smelt absolutely amazing on their hot plate- their previous night’s supper which was dhalgosht. For those of you who don’t know, dhalgosht is a lentil and mutton bredie. She toasted bread and poured hot, sweet cups of tea for us and we sat down to eat. There was no mutton left in the dhal, yet the flavour lingered. I dipped the toast into the bredie and remember thinking this was the best tasting dhal I had ever had in my life. Today, I still make sure I have sweet tea, toast and dhal the day after I cook it, to remind me of that precious moment.

Food has the power to invoke feelings of love and comfort. When I first lived in Jhb, Twisters used to deliver food to our office. I would wait for their mini van anxiously, and would order the same thing everyday, a huge apricot jam doughnut. It was soft, light and oozed jam, making my fingers sticky and sweet! Since I hardly had a social life, I would spend every Saturday night at home, with nothing but a big bag of Doritos, cottage cheese and coconut-covered marshmallows for company. Food was my friend. If I had to go to the bathroom at night, I would make a detour to my fridge and sneak a piece of white chocolate and smile as I fell off to sleep.
Food gave me comfort and gave me a feeling of complete bliss! The smell, taste and feeling of food in your mouth is an incredibly sensual and comforting feeling. It’s no wonder people fall easily into the trap of gluttony! Gluttony is considered sinful because an excess of any pleasure in life, can become an addiction.

Falling victim to a constant sweet tooth can manifest as diabetes and sores in the body. Eating too much salty things encourage high blood pressure. The body is a clever machine. When we eat too much, the body knows how to let us know when we have overdone it. Obesity, tummy aches, toothaches, headaches. We throw up when whatever we have eaten or drank does not agree with us, it’s our bodies way of rejecting the contents that upset it in the first place.

Gluttony feels like winning the lottery. You feel happy only when there is an excess of food or drink or luxury items. Sometimes people who are gluttonous do so to show off. They feel a need to prove to others they have more than plenty and flaunt this. If it’s food you’re after, you get a high seeing or smelling something delicious and your mouth salivates awaiting the moment you get to taste it. If you’re bored or heartbroken and find that a tub of ice cream or chocolate cake is in the house, you go crazy, devouring it like a wild beast, only to regret it moments later. It’s craving a moment of pleasure, feeling safe. Drowning out your emotions and concentrating on filling your tummy in the hope of forgetting your troubles for a while. This is when food becomes an addiction and an obsession.  Often when we have eaten way too much, we become lazy and tend to sleep afterwards, how    unhealthy!
Like anything in life, moderation is key! Food should serve to nourish us. We are living in a time where we have the best medical assistance when required. Still the best way to stay healthy is to pay attention to our bodies and remember that it is our soul’s vehicle here on earth. The more care and respect you show to your body, the stronger you will feel in your mind and spirit too.

The next time you feel tempted to pig out on something you know you will regret later, ask yourself whether you’re eating because you’re really hungry. If the answers ‘I’m bored / this is just something to do / it tastes good so I don’t want to stop’ that’s gluttony! Have the power to resist and know that your body will thank you for being disciplined later! (I promise to take my own advice and resist the urge to have that second helping of garlic prawns tonight!)

Love and light,
Your Resident Psychic & Spirit Medium,
Tennille*